Today was not what I wanted it to be and I’m downhearted to say the least.
I want to go to university, well, at least I think I do. Okay, I don’t know what I want and that stresses me out. I don’t even know why I suddenly chose to write down my thoughts, except for the fact that I visited a university and it didn’t live up to my expectations. I was uninspired and left questioning all of the decisions I had already made for my academic future. How is this even possible?
For months I have been set on studying creative writing and English at university. I was excited about improving my writing and gaining skills I may have previously overlooked. The course should be perfect for people like me. I thought it was but…now I’m not so sure.
What should I do now? A small, well significant, disappointment may have changed my complete outlook on my future. Where do I go from here? The truth is I don’t know the correct answer.
I hate being unprepared for anything. I hate last-minute decisions. I hate not knowing what I’m doing when I have a deadline I need to meet. Today all of those things were making me feel uncertain, but I overcame them. I confirmed my firm offer for a different university. So, I’ll keep writing in my spare time and working towards grades that will eventually count for something bigger than a certificate. In the end I decided that I would rather give my course a chance than let disappointment discourage me entirely.
How do you deal with disappointment? Let me know in the comments.
Until next time keep dreaming x