I wouldn’t consider myself to be a complete introvert, yet I can be socially awkward sometimes.
I admit that I’m naturally a quiet person. The kind of person who enjoys spending days writing blog posts and watching Netflix by myself. However, I am also someone who loves the idea of socialising with friends. I’ve come to realise that in order to live the kind of life that I want, I need to become more confident and outgoing. This is something, which is great in theory, but hard to actually achieve.
Today was my last day of college and after we had left, me and my friends joined other people for celebratory drinks. I did have a lovely time and it was a really good end to what have been seven enjoyable years. However, even surrounded by familiar people, I started to feel self-conscious and that prevented me from just letting go.
The truth is, I’m more socially awkward than I realised and that is something I dislike about myself. I want to be able to dance, sing and just have fun without thinking about what other people think. I want to be that girl that everyone knows for being self-assured. I want to be me, but a more confident version of myself. I want to be so much more than I am.
On the 19th of June I will have my final exam and officially leave college. Presuming I get the grades I need, I will be starting my university experience with a mixture of excitement and nerves. So, as a personal goal, I really want to get involved and become more sociable to make the most of the opportunities that will become available. Let’s hope that this time I will actually manage to succeed.
Let me know in the comments if you share my socially awkward qualities.
Until next keep dreaming x